"HERO"

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord Knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you..

This is a song by Mariah Carey- called "HERO". Right now its my favorite song, because for some reason...I'm having a hard time- and when I hear this...I get a feeling of hope and reassurance. And even though I'm going to bed at an okay time, I'm still really tired. All day at school today, people kept asking me if I was okay, and of course I told them things WERE okay- but the truth is...I don't even know anymore. I am happy- but at the same time, I'm very unhappy. I really don't know what to do about it. I don't know who to talk to about it...or anything. Ah. Why does life have to suck so bad? I feel like I'm growing up too fast, and I feel like my every move is so secretive and crucial that I'm not enjoying life. All of this is on the inside- I do my best to make things seem peachy on the outside, but the truth is, its not. How do I make it so that I FEEL like life is peachy? I want things to change- I want to be HAPPY- for real. I'm searching- for that hero inside of me, looking for the strength that lies deep inside me.